I am sooo blessed. Truly. I've been thinking a lot about life and where I've been and going and so on. I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world. Kaine is a blessing beyond blessings. I was worried that moving in with him so soon would ruin my relationship, but all its done has strengthened it. And my roommie Blake and I have gotten way closer and truly has made an impression as a friend for life. It's an awesome feeling of extended family I've been searching for for so damn long. And yet. Its kinda weird how it seems that it has always been this way.

It's nice to be back in Vegas. The people are more down to earth, and I can connect with my friends here deeper than any. My modeling partner and best girl friend Rose, my magickal mentors: Nite, Eric, Tom and Scott.... And I finally have been able to establish some sort of stable relationship with my mother and little brother.

Of course I miss my friends back in Florida terribly. I miss Yuginai. She is not only my trusted and adored "sister" but a valued part of my life and my savior in many situations which required her presence to get through. I miss Karena. Even though she drove me nuts when we lived together, I do miss her being in my life. Its just a shame that we couldnt live together. But that whole situation seems to have worked itself out for the best. I miss Thomas. God is he gorgeous! lol. He also saved me in a few of the predicaments I managed to entangle myself in. Xavier Acorea and Damian both were influencial Floridians that I seemed to get myself involved with and although neither developed into anything further than friends with benefits at the times, they are both still cherished and missed individuals in my life at present. And then there's Stefan...

Yea. I miss my ex. Get over it. Not in that way. lol! He is still a valued and cherished friend. I miss his company. He was quite comical at times and he really was an impacting influence on me this past 6 months. I can't say that nowadays I'm sorry we broke up, but I do miss his presence as a friend in my life.

But it does at least comfort me to know that they are still in my heart, and that when I do go to visit, that I have good people in that part of the country that are always going to be there for me. For that I feel blessed.